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Written by melancholy17 27 January 2009 23:09

I have been depressed constantly for years, without much respite in between, but I can safely say this is the worst I have ever felt. I have been forced to move to Dubai from Thailand and I despite it here...no offence to the locals, Im sure it has many redeeming attributes, but for me personally this place has been the catalyst for sending me spiralling into such black despair I am now afraid of myself. I can barely make myself leave the house, and suicide is a constant thought nagging at the back of my mind. I don't know how much longer I can take it. I have lost the ability to feel hope, and all I'm doing now is enduring. I'm stuck in my own personal hell.

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Dear melancholy17,

Having been depressed for years and being so young sounds very sad. You also tried medication and that didn't help. I think you need someone to talk with about your life situation, about your worries and problems. It often helps a lot as it gives you new thoughts and other ways to look at the problems.
I have been working on this site answering letters, you can contact me by phone 050-9154804 or e-mail vlabbaci@hotmail.com.

Kind regards,
Vappu Eerola Labbaci
Psychologist

Written by vappu, 22 March 2009 11:03

ifeelexactly the same maybe we should meet

Written by chris, 01 April 2009 22:44

...it makes me feel good to know that there is someone else out there who feels the same way. just like you, i was forced by circumstances to move to dubai and be apart from my son and the one and only man whom i want to be with for the rest of my life. i have been here for almost 2years and since day 1, it has been nothing but unhappy days up until this day. hello and goodbye, here and in two other countries during visits have been a consistent part of my life since 4 years and the past months, the situation has gotten worst as i realize more that i am alone and the continuous hello and goodbyes have made a huge factor in my depression apart from being in a world i despise and being separated from my loved ones. i dont want to meet people, i dont want to meet anybody, mingle or even waste time saying hi. i have lost friends i gained when i first came here for reasons i do not understand and some have left the country. light depression have always been a part of my life however, some days it can also get very bad but not as bad as how i feel it is these days. one evening, i came home from work, sat in front of the window and tears rolling down my face and i couldnt stop...then i thought of the one thing i have always been completely against...drugs. i thought it would be the solution to being able to just exist without caring where i am and to just go with it. i am convinced i need help...i need proper prescription and currently looking for a good one i can really talk to. if you have found anyone, please let me know and i will do the same.

sincerely,
jean

Written by jean, 15 January 2010 12:03

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