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I have visited this site after many months and am here to share the agony and sadness of the feelings i am going through to see my mother ailing and suffering inemerable problems with her old age.
my mother has been ailing for a year now with various complications related to old age and its been very hard for me and the other siblings to see this suffering.
my mother has never been a complaing type and and has always been there for us.
i lost my father in 2004....all of a sudden and that was heartbreaking and now this.
each day my mother suffers from all her problems compounded and she is not in dubai. i feel so helpless and small that i am depressed and sad all the time.
poor thing, she always says she is okay when i speak to her just to avoid me worrying.
she has been in and out of hospital thrice since june and each time she goes through so much of suffering with all the treatment and the like.
i know everyone ages and suffers, but i can't see my mother go through so much. she has always been very soft spoken and gentle, but mentally very strong and has been a strength to us always. and now to see her suffer is heartbreaking....but she still does not show her pain....just for our sake so that we don't feel let down. its very hard and i am finding it very difficult to cope with this problem.